I don’t know why it happened
I’m not even sure when it happened
This darkness…
It’s become a part of my soul
This soulful, crying-for-no-particular-reason sadness
is not just a pain anymore
It has become a part of me
I am the sadness
I am the darkness I tried to run from
I’ve wanted to die since I was 18
And it’s been a long time since I recognised
The girl in the mirror
And it’s been a long time
since I heard myself laugh
And it’s been a long time
since I cared about my happiness
I feigned apathy
Until it became all I knew
marion's musings 