judas

many hours i have spent thinking about you
how great you are
how wonderful you are
how truly and utterly breath taken i am by you

i read about jonah the other day
and maybe there is still hope for me after all
but even solomon was broken by this world
and judas still betrayed you after all he had seen of you

was judas destined to fail long before he was born?
was he destined to walk only that path towards death?
was he never meant to make it to your kingdom?
how do i measure up Lord?
i used to think i had faith as small as a mustard seed
but my faith barely moves the leaves on a tree

because some days i need proof of you
when bad things happen
i need proof that you see what i see
i need proof that you see what i see and choose to stand watch
and i wouldnt even care that you do
because i know you have your reasons
but some days i need proof that youre here
that you just are

am i destined to be like judas?
who saw your wonders first hand
who watched you walk on water
who heard you speak
and heal the sick
who watched you feed thousands with only a handful of bread and fish
my god…
am i also destined to fail?

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