that moment in a relationship when you realise youre fucked

if only life were a series of firsts
though i dont even remember the first time i met you
but i do remember the first time i noticed you
and i remember then walking the long way around just to catch a glimpse of you
the first time you made me laugh
and the first time i cried tears for you
the first time i stayed up all night thinking of what it might feel to hold you in my arms
i never felt more alive
and i never realised how fickle life and people could be
i never realised how fragile the human heart is
how easy it was to break
how easy this glass eye of mine could shatter into a million pieces
my heart, the strongest muscle of my body
weakening with your every touch, word, laugh
racing to beat along with yours
this heart of mine, that was never whole to begin with
my heart, painfully putting itself together
fragments trying to be whole again
i bleed every time i think of you
and now im left here
aching for you to make me whole again
make me feel like i can conquer the world again
and how can love be a good thing if it hurts so much?
the more i give the more i lose
so how can love make me whole again?

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